It's been a while....

well, i don't know what sparked this reunion with my blog but i felt that i have spent too much away from this most important lifeline of mine. i don't have much to write in this post but i will post an essay that i wrote for my first assignment for my LL114 class... it's a narrative essay and it talks about my experiences during the time that Jese passed away. I do apologise for not putting anything new up but now i'm back and i've got lots to add and say... heck i've got the time to do it so why the heck no??? lol

stay tuned for more updates....

big luvin!

F1j!@n 2 d@ b0n3....

Roses are red

FIJIAN'Z are brown

thats my race

u STUPID clown...

My FIJIAN pride

I will not hide

My FIJIAN race

I will not disgrace

My FIJIAN blood

flows hot & true

My FIJIAN peeps

I will stand by you

thru thick & thin

till the day we die

Our FIJIAN flag

Always stands high

I yell this poem

Louder than all the rest.

cuz every 1 knows

FIJIAN'S ARE THE BEST!!!

FIJIAN Pride in my mind

FIJIAN BLOOD is my kind

So step aside and let me through

Cuz its all about the FIJIAN crew

Life sucks and then u die

but if your FIJIAN

You die with sweet a$$ pride!!!

Just making my way through life

it's a new week and the semester has begun yet again. mid-semester was a welcome break from the hectic schedule (vaya hectic...damn it was sooo busy) but then that's life.lolz.

i'mm just taking time out of my dAY TO do what i do best.blog.lolz. i'm about to go to youtube and watch the latest episodes in my fav anime's (bleach, naruto, etc)

i was planning on writing something really long and shit but i can't, i've lost all train of thought, so i'm gonna just leave it here.

arohanui.

S.T.

What's wrong with me???

gosh, i seriously have no idea what's wrong with me today. i had a class in the morning and it was alright, i learnt how to use the audio software we've got in the newsroom (audacity) and i think i'm gettin the hang of it the only problem is that sometimes i can't concentrate. damn it.

besides, that i had this very interesting email that was coming round and the most interesting thing about it was being labelled. wanna know? well apparently to a certain someone in the newsroom i'm an ALREADY CONFUSED HUGE FUCK. now, i'm not saying that i took offence at that...BULLSHIT... of course i took offence, nobody calls me a huge fuck except my brother Jese and he's gone so that leaves no-one. so i guess that was what got me ticked off and the sad thing about it is that i can't focus properly on what i'm supposed to be doing.

i have to write about 6 stories this week for radio and another one for my 201 class and it's not coming well at all. sux to be me. lolz.

i realise that i haven't blogged in a while. the last time i wrote something was like last week and that seems like ages ago. damn! i need to find more time to blog. i would love to blog from home but by the time i get home, i'm too tired to do shit.

the only highlight for my week is that my sister Zellah is coming in from Brisbane today with my boys Denzel and Zion. and then Jone comes in on Friday and then on Saturday i'm singing with Graham's band at Wati's friends b'day party and there'll be drinks galore!!!! i'm gonna get Jone to give me $20 so i can go and get my ears pierced. i'm thinking a double pierce on my left ear. cool huh?

then on Monday nex week i'm going to Nadi so i can pick up Taina from the airport and we'll come back to Suva probably on the same day or maybe early tuesday morning. we'll see.

Next week is Graham's and leiby's wedding and i can't wait for it. it's the biggest event in the family calendar besides of course Mum & Dad's retirement service which is on the Sunday (8 Apr).

that's about it for now. i'm gonna try and see if i can do some real work...lolz... as if i can even think of something to write. but until i next blog.... ciao!

oh! check out this new manga that i'm reading: Bleach

What a long week it has been!

wow... i can't believe that i haven't posted anything in my blog after sooooo long! i can't even remember what i had in my last blog. well, this week has been absolutely draining. i have had classes postponed, assignment hand-in's, editing stories for Wansolwara and i am currently awaiting to begin my next class (JN 201) and we will be working for the next three hours on newspaper layout. our assignment from Shalen is to design and create a 6 paged newsletter of any theme and we have to use the design software available in the newsroom.

oh, i've just completed downloading the latest comic from the naruto shippuden series. it's getting very exciting... hmmm i might actually try and post the comic here so i can read it whenever i want! cool!!!

so if you are a naruto fan then stay tuned for more of the Naruto series!

that's about it for now, i can't think of anything else to write.

ciao!

It's a hectic day for me

well, i'm just taking a few moments out of what has to be the busiest day i have seen this week to post a quicky on my blog... we had a one hour class with Shalen and he had us all running around chasing up stories and working to meet tomorrow's deadline... hehehehehe... all a part of being a journalist huh?

well, i've got to sign off here but do check around for some updates.

^j^

The stupid things we say

Well, I’ve had a hell of a time gathering small bits and pieces of stuff that’s been happening in the lives of people around me (who are dear to me!!!). The thing that really gets me is how dense people can be and just how far we’re willing to go just to make our lives look happy and satisfying when in all truth, deep inside, we’re hurting real bad and there’s nothing much we can do about it. It sorta makes me think of the reasons why I came up with this blog in the first place.

At first I wanted to use the blog to release all that pent up stress I was facing instead of resorting to lying down in bed crying to my pillow. And you know what? It’s actually worked, well once in a while. Sometimes, it’s just good enough for me to have a good cry over stuff, it helps me get over some of the issues I face everyday.

Anyway, back to what I wanted to talk about; I’ve noticed recently that people say a lot of things. Sometimes it can be figurative, at other times it’s literal. Most, if not all, the time it’s hurtful and negative things. We get into petty fights and pretty soon, our maturity goes out the window and we’re trading insults like we’re 6 year olds. And when it’s over and done with, we wish we could go back in time and take back everything we’ve said but it’s too late; the damage has been done and someone’s hurt from those very words. I know I’ve had my fair share of it – more than I can ever count.



All of last year I’ve learnt to watch what I say in front of some people and what I say in front of others. It’s difficult juggling it but then there’s no way around it, especially when I was warned by some close friends to be careful of what I say and do with some others who I thought were friends. It’s hard and sometimes, it can be down right hurtful to me but then it teaches me to exercise my conscience in every conversation. In the end, I come back happier knowing that I didn’t say or do anything that could have offended a good friend of mine.

I was thinking back to many conversations I’ve listened to (most are private and confidential) and I’m struck by how stupid some of our arguments sound. It’s just down right foolishness to think that what we’re fighting over is actually of importance to our daily lives. Damn, I’d love to give a good example right now but that’s confidential and I can’t say anything about it.



Hmmm, one thing I’ve noticed is that ever since I’ve started this blog, I’ve realised how easy it’s become for me to keep a secret. Because I have an avenue to vent my feelings and keep that secret; wow! I am actually proud of myself for that fact! [**self pat on the back**]

I’ve just about exhausted everything I was meaning to say on this issue so, that’s about it for now, but do check again for more of my ranting and raving on trivial issues. Lolz

^j^

Sex equals Trust

Well, I was watching Australia Network and there was this short documentary on Trust and how there’s this guy who wants to find out what it is that makes us trust each other as human beings. Apparently it’s to do with a chemical in our body that is released when we experience an orgasm during sex. For pregnant women, it comes out in tremendous amounts when they are giving birth. But what got to me was what the narrator on the documentary was saying: “Sex is the ultimate form of trust,” that is really interesting to me.

I mean it’s not often that you hear that when you have sex it is reflected as trust. But when you think about it, sex is about trust. I mean, of course there are other things that matter but when it’s to do with your first time it’s all about trust.

Let’s say guy and girl want to get their freak on, guy’s experienced but girl is total virgin. She has to trust him in order to let him ‘crack’ her so to speak. Or even vice-versa. Trust is a major factor that decides if you’re having sex or if you’re being raped. In the cases of an older more mature person sleeping with a younger guy/girl, trust comes up again. Consensual/consenting sex is what happens between two people who are willing to express their love in a physical way, they trust each other.

When parents or older family members have sexual intercourse with younger members against their will, it’s a big violation of their trust. Incest is downright wrong but who are we to stop it when it occurs between consenting people. They trust each other. Society’s moral values need to be re-evaluated. Gone are the days when gay relationships were considered taboo. Nowadays, gay people can walk in public holding hands and kissing, the stigma of taboo-ism is slowly drifting away and a new age of thinking is coming out.

But then there’s the age-old theology from religion that forbids all manners of sex unless it’s between a man and woman and in the frame of marriage. Is our society turning into a reflection of biblical Sodom and Gomorrah? Its society was steeped in sexual activities of all kinds and its social hierarchy was rotten to the core. I would say yes, we are slowly coming to that point but isn’t that the price we paid for democracy and free speech and all those other things advocated for in the Bill of Rights?

So, to close my train of thought from moving any further into philosophical gibberish, I’ll just stay on that one quote, “Sex is the ultimate form of trust”.

SEX = TRUST (ain’t nothing else can beat that… but that’s debatable)

Coup Time??? psssshhh!

i'm sure that you've heard a little at least of what's happening here in Fiji and i can't blame you if you've heard something really, really wicked like they're killing people here and stuff like that but no it's not happening and i doubt it'll even happen.

i'mm just taking this time to OFFICIALLY say that i support the military takeover of government coz i hated the SDL govt in the first place! if i had the chance to vote, i would vote for the Alliance party not SDL. So Frank and his peeps got my vote. i'm actually happy that this is happening. as a journalist, i've heard alot of unnflattering things about our former govt and how they have been running things here in Fiji. How will our government defend themselves when the military begins to reveal where all those millions of dollars have gone missing.

i just want to tell all my family overseas and anyone else that wants to know that what is happening here is not affecting the normalcy of life (for me anyways....'cept of course for my mum who wants to ground me) here in Fiji. Life is going on as usual, the only difference is that the military is running government and it's doing its best to prevent village idiots from looting and destrying our towns and homes.

i dont' know when i'll stop singing the commanders praise but he has my unequivocal support for the clean-up campaign. you can form your own opinions coz you're entititled to it.

Yes i'm bummed out about the postponement of several events that were due to take place next month but i know and believe that its gonna work out good for the betterment of our nation. critics and all these *smart* people are saying that this "coup" has set Fiji's development back by 10 years but i disagree and i'm believing that everything will be sorted out by next month and life will definately go on as usual minus a few politicians and *maybe* a changed constitution.

I've heard so much through the pipeline that i would love to share but i can't coz i might get prosecuted but believe that what the military is doing is right and all will be revealed sooner rather than later. Other pacific nations better take a moment to learn a lesson from Fiji's experiences. it would be good for them.

Now on to the issue of foreign intervention and all that stuff.... i think australia, new zealand and america (britain too) should stick it and stay out of our business. they can put up as many trade sanctions and visa restriction they want, we can easily find aid in the form of our Asian counterparts who are familliar with what we are going through. Out of all the nations in the world, the asians, americas and the middle eastern nations are the only ones that know and understand what is happening. So it'd probably be to them that we will turn to for aid. China would easily snap up at the chance to be an aid provider for Fiji, so too would malaysia, Indonesia, Thailand and even India. So all the caucasian nations can stuff themselves. They are just a bunch of policy freaks who are the most racist in this day and age.

To my family members living in those said countries, don't worry i'm not dissing you it's just that those countries need to know when their input is needed and when it isn't.

So that's my two cents worth on the coup issue, which i doubt is even an issue. The media needs to watch itself, i've noticed that several reporters have broken many reporting ethics and they will face the consequences of it. I'm glad that i'm just staying home and keeping an eye on Jessica. I will be called in one day to report on a case but until then, i've just been told by my lecturer to keep a journal on all the things happening. i'd have to buy a book and get news paper clippings and such. i'd also need to write up my own opinions of what's happening. which is what i'm doing now.

hope you enjoyed reading this!

sy.

^j^

Bullet to the brain

Hmmm.... interesting title, i'm sure it caught your eye. I certainly got my thoughts flowing when i saw that pic in my google image search.

well, just to explain what i've been up to, i had a meeting with my study group today and we've been trying to figure out what exactly we should look for in our exam (apparently our lecturer said that it's right in front of our noses) so instead of running around cross eyed i've been trying to get my notes and extras from our class shares that's not very sharing at the moment. it's like a bullet to the brain. (hence the title)

i've decided to give it a break and try something more fulfilling (blogging... yay!!!)

hmmm..... seems like that's all i can say for now, so, see you latas!

^j^